Man I’m having some right now and all I can say is fuck! Truth is, i’m not a strong person, I’m really not. And you can see this when I”m being tested, cuz Ive been failing. I mean, i’ve definitely gotten stronger that’s for sure. I’ve just been lucky enough to get by without having to go thru certain things, but now that it’s happening, I see that, I guess I kind of asked for it.
I was living one life, and I wanted a better one, and that’s the kinda shit you gotta go thru to get to the next level, and you gotta pass.
I was talking to an old friend and memories of past lives came back and certain ppl that I’ve hurt and I guess I can say it’s haunting me. In a sense that, even though I did what I thought was the right thing, I ended up having to burn a bridge, and now it’s like in my head I want to set up a memorial or something and just dwel on it.
But I guess I know I shouldn’t, and the fact that I know and can laugh about how stupid I was reacting 5 minutes ago shows how immature I am and how I shouldn’t even take myself so seriously because I overreact constantly, no matter how hard I try not to. Some things are just so crazy that they blow your mind and you have to yell out, “WTF!” , only to realize, that it wasn’t even a big deal and nobody else cares.